Trigger warning: diet, exercise, eating disorders, body image, I will mention CALORIES and CALORIE COUNT in this post
Although I’ve written a lot about the incredibly unhealthy ways that I have lost or tried to lose weight in the past, I am finally at a point in my life where I can begin to start looking at my diet and exercise, without slipping back into bad habits, and can really take a good hard look at the way that I treat my body, and what I want to achieve from it. Health has always been a tricky thing for me to get the balance right with (I’m a woman of extremes), but here’s what’s new with me and my approach to my diet and exercise.
I suffered from various forms of eating disorder / disordered eating from the age of around 16 – 22. Recovery for me has been a process and learning to love my body again has been really hard. When I finally got to a point where I was able to eat more calories and not feel guilty, I bloody enjoyed it. However, the side effect of eating what you want without worrying and also being in a happy relationship? Weight gain.
I’m by no means overweight, but I’m not feeling as confident as I’d like to, and with 6-months until the wedding, I’m really beginning to re-evaluate the way that I want to look and how I want to feel in myself. So here’s what I’m doing to boost my health and fitness journey:
I’m really not good at running on a treadmill for hours, but what I am good at is competitive exercise (even if it is competing with myself!)
I’ve signed up for the gym again, to do cardio and weights- plus they have a gorgeous outdoor swimming pool. I’ve also started playing squash with Luke and I’m going to endeavour to get back into yoga and rock-climbing as much as possible.
The thing is, I always enjoy exercise so much once I get back into it… it’s just breaking down the wall of actually not wanting to go, that I have to get through!
My diet is relatively dull these days, but I’m tracking all my calories by using ‘MyFitnessPal’ (I’ve set a maximum of 1750 calories, but I don’t tend to reach that most days)
My new diet plan generally consists of:
Breakfast: A protein bar OR porridge
Lunch: A sandwich, fruit and a low-fat snack OR salad
Dinner: Stir fry OR pasta OR chicken/veg OR cous-cous/rice
I mean, this is super general… but I’m really trying to boost my fruits and veg, my wholemeal, grains, pulses etc.
I’m one of those people who gets crazy hungry 99% of the time, so I’m trying to eat filling and tasty meals, whilst also not feeling guilty about what I’m consuming!
I think that trying to be ‘on plan’ all the time is literally going to be impossible, so I’ve decided to make Sunday my ‘cheat day’. No, that doesn’t mean I’m going to binge and eat whatever the hell I want every Sunday… but it does mean that if I want a little (or large) treat I’m able to do that. Last Sunday I was with my friends and we had burgers, and this week it’s my grandma’s birthday, so I’ll be able to eat out without worrying about what I’m choosing.
The key thing for me right now, is being able to implement all of this without slipping back into bad habits or disordered eating behaviours. I’ll keep you all updated on my progress, but I’m exited to start making healthy changes!
I hope that some of this has been vaguely useful! Please leave me a comment if you’re doing the same, and follow my journey on instagram at: rach_fituk_ if you’re interested!