Well, it’s been around 3 months and I’m finally officially off my antidepressants. I’ve been at this point before and it’s primarily been because I’ve been desperately rushing to get the things out of my system, but this time- I wanted to do things properly… so I’ve been easing off them since the start of the year. (I was always on the minimum dose so did it by taking one every other day and easing off slowly that way)
I started taking antidepressants when I was 18 to try and tackle the anxiety and low-moods that had come with my eating disorder. I’ve never had depression or been diagnosed with it, but I was incredibly low at points and the GP quite casually handed them to me, to ‘see how I managed’ with them, and I’ll be honest- they were brilliant.
I had horrible side-effects to start with, but once that wore off, I felt like I was in a much more mentally stable place, I had better control over my OCD thoughts, I didn’t feel as anxious as before and I stayed on them for the next couple of years while I was stressing at uni, combatting bad mental health and I found that they were helping.
There were a couple of stints trying to get off them before, but I’m finally in a place where I feel like I don’t need them as much.
I’m much happier than I’ve ever been, my life is a lot more settled and it really felt like the right time to stop putting hormones in my body that I just probably didn’t need anymore.
My skin is finally starting to ease up a little. Although there are still some little hormonal spots it’s so much better than the crazy break-out that I had last month- which is great, I was properly starting to stress out that this was just my teenage skin coming back for phase 2 waahh.
Everything else *fingers crossed* like nausea and headaches seem to have disappeared now. Apparently, the tablets are actually fully out of your system after a week or so, so now I’m completely off them there ain’t nothing in ma system. YAY!
I’ve been half miserable and half A+ amazing lately, but I don’t think any of it has been down to my tablets. My job was causing crazy misery at the start of March and then as soon as I found something new I felt so much better.
Anxiety & OCD
My anxiety had one hugely irrational spike (which cba to even tell the internet because it’s so ridiculous) but after that I think I’ve managed things fairly well.
My anxiety and OCD are absolutely parts of my personality that won’t ever completely leave, but they’re things I’ve been so much better at managing lately.
So, that’s it! The (hopefully) last update. There’s no shame if I need to go back on them at some point in the future, but for now, I’m happy to be off them again!