Right- if you’re anything like me and just read that title, let’s just clarify one fact before you fall off your chair: No- I am not trying to get pregnant.
(Although plz someone control my broodiness help)
Instead, I’m at the end of my tether when it comes to contraception, yamming hormones into my body every single day and feeling as emotionally volatile as a teenager entering puberty.
I’m tired of feeling sad for no reason, I’m fed-up of being hormonal, I’m bored shitless of dealing with spots and breakthrough bleeds and having to stroll back to my GP every few months to hear the same thing over and over again- that the side effects are normal, that ‘we should see how it goes’, or being transferred from pill to pill to ‘hope for the best this time eh?’
So finally, (after discussions with my other half obviously)- I’m taking the control back to my own body, and I’m going to give it a little break from the contraceptive pill.
I think the fact that I’m coming off my antidepressants has helped fill me with the need to stop giving my body artificial hormones and why I’ve decided to make the decision- but there’s still a huge part of me that is filled with anxiety in making this choice.
I know that after being on the pill for 5 years- my body will be different when I come off.
My periods will be heavier, unreliable, my weight might shift, my boobs will *probably* get slightly smaller (although someone pray this doesn’t happen) – and I’ll have to start being really REALLY damn careful when doing ya know… sexy stuff.
So, I guess whilst taking control back of my body- you’re wondering what exactly I’m going to be using to prevent le babies? (And no- I’m not going to invest in one of those damn thermometers)
Well, condoms seem like my only viable option right now to be honest.
I have considered other alternatives, but to be quite honest they make me feel really weird and uncomfortable. I know my body well enough after these 23 years to realise that it is not a fan of thing being physically being put inside my body.
I’m sick to death of messing with my hormones and I’m still researching my alternative options.
But I think it’s going to be a real learning curve for me- and something that only time will tell how well it’s going.
I’m going to be doing mini updates alongside my regular posts to monitor how it’s going and if I’m getting any side-effects.
Do you guys have any advice?