Dear diary… I’m feeling like I can’t “adult”

I just had a 20 minute sobbing breakdown at my desk whilst hugging my (very angry and unwilling) cat. Because to be honest- I’m feeling overwhelmed by life.

I’m overwhelmed with the amount of work that has been thrown my way, I’m overwhelmed with bills and rent, I’m overwhelmed looking after two cat babies and planning a wedding and job hunting and trying to maintain a good diet and exercise and a tidy and clean house… alongside reading books, getting enough sleep, seeing my family, keeping on top of laundry and writing my blog.

Yeah I know that I sound like a whingy cow and I know that there are far bigger problems that other people have- but that doesn’t mean that you aren’t allowed to feel like everything is just getting a bit much sometimes?

I’m only 23 and I feel like I went from living with my parents and working a relatively mellow job about a year ago- to being in the midst of all this adult stuff that I should have a handle on by now. I feel like so much has changed so fast and although it’s exciting, it’s all a bit too much for me right now and my anxiety.

It sucks, because I feel like a bit of a failure really. I feel like I’m letting down the people I work for by freaking out and I’m letting myself down by not embracing all the wonderful stuff that I’ve got going on…

Anyone else ever feel like that?

Rach

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2 Comments

  1. February 19, 2018 / 1:49 pm

    I think everyone feels like that from time to time, just do one thing at a time and you’ll get there 🙂

    • rachelalice16
      Author
      February 19, 2018 / 7:28 pm

      Yep you’re so right! It’s just taking things one step at a time (or crying into a punnet of ice cream occasionally 🙂 )

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