Trigger Warning: I’m going to share weights, measurements and talk about body image.
One of my least favorite things used to be going shopping for clothes. Not because it’s busy and crowded with people in shopping centers, not because I couldn’t find things I liked- but instead, because I used to have an actual crisis at my appearance in the changing room mirror- whenever I went to try things on.
Nowadays, I’m reasonably well-adjusted. I eat my veggies, I manage to put makeup on most days, I have a full-time job and I’m much more aware that my body is not, in fact, the human embodiment of a sea-slug- but it’s not the issues I have with body image that are stopping me from sharing my OOTDs or pursuing any interest I have in fashion- it’s that I don’t feel like high-street fashion really suits my body shape?
I really love fashion, but I feel like I have a weird body that doesn’t really accommodate a lot of it- and I’m sure I can’t be the only one.
In terms of the UK’s population- I would consider myself an incredibly normal size and weight. I’m 5 foot, 7 (ish)- I weigh around 10 stone (I haven’t weighed myself in years but the last time I did that was my weight) – I’m a size 10/12 depending on the style of the shop, I have 34DD boobs- but yet, I feel like there’s an unbearably irritating thing going on.
NOTHING IN THE HIGH-STREET FITS RIGHT.
I feel like Topshop jeans sit funny, giving me a flat- bum and then sagging off at the bottom. I feel like styled trousers like cutolettes or cigarette pants will not for the life of me sit comfortably around my bum or my thighs- and then sizing up means they’ll be too big or too long.
I feel like fashions like cold-shoulder tops just hang strangely because I have big boobs and a flatter stomach. I feel like coats will not fit over my boobs without becoming insanely long to compensate for the size.
It’s resulted in my style fitting a very narrow gap of skinny jeans, baggy jumpers and the occasional topshop t-shirt. Groundbreaking.
And- in the blogger-sphere, I’m feeling this too.
The women I follow for fashion inspiration are all petite, slim and tiny. Or- they’re plus-size, with a whole range of differnt style. Believe me, I’ve hunted down bloggers who I feel accomodate my seemingly average (slightly curvy) body shape, but to no avail.
I can’t be the only woman who is facing this everytime they seem to enter any sort of branch where fashion is bulk- produced to fit a mass of body shapes, styles and sizes. And I can’t be the only person finding it hella frustrating, that I have to alter and tailor my clothes in order to get them to fit how I want them?
It’s having an impact on my content, because I feel like most of my style choices aren’t fashion that I’m loving to wear. It’s also having an impact on my body-image, which I’ve struggled with for so long. It’s disheartening to feel like you love an item, only to find that your lanky arms or slighly chubbier thighs just won’t be fitting into it.
I don’t know if this means I’ll forever be living in skinny jeans, baggy jumpers and leggings- what do you think?